Fragile Body, Strong Body

Sometimes I feel like my body is so strong and resilient. It’s gone through so much – trauma, COVID, injuries, life. And sometimes I feel like it’s so fragile. It is so reactive to foods and stress and energies. Right now, I have been dealing with eye issues and I cannot figure out what might be causing it, no matter what I change and eliminate. I feel as though I have tried everything.

I know that both are true, my body is strong, and my body is fragile. But, maybe it’s not “fragile,” as that sounds like something weak, which clearly it is not. A more fitting word is “sensitive.” My body is sensitive, and it would be helpful to remember that. Whether or not I have yet understood what is going on with my eyes, something is going on. My body communicates very clearly with me, and it’s up to me to slow down, listen, and have great patience.

Yes, it could be something I’m eating or something in a supplement that I feel like it couldn’t possibly be. Or, it could be a situation, this city, that it is time to go and move on.

The most important thing is that if I become frustrated, or when I become frustrated, to not turn on my body. It’s easy for me in moments of exhaustion or exasperation to aim my feelings towards my body, insisting that it’s not cooperating, when it is doing exactly what it should be doing. It’s alerting me to what’s best for me, for us (me and my body), and so at times that I want throw my hands up and say, “I give up,” I can instead put my hand over my heart and say, “Okay, I’m listening.”