I Love You Just Because

Tonight I was making a version of cookies and listening to Anita Baker since, “I love you just because, I love you just because,” and it all felt so good. Just that moment. And I realized how simply my mind could go and attach to something, but for that moment I was in the moment and I was just with me, just my energy, here in this space, enjoying this moment. And I thought of the past me, how hard it was, how much I struggled, and I felt a moment of such sorrow because I don’t know how I got through it all. I don’t know how I was able to bear all the pain. And it feels impossible that I am here now, just continuing to shed and so many parts of my mind to die and disintegrate. How? How did I do this? I don’t feel it was me. I mean, I stayed. I didn’t leave earth. I endured it somehow. But I was certainly not in control of any of it.

As the person I spiritually trust here on this Earth said, that I had to wait for grace. It is grace.

Perhaps it is where my deepest desire for Love that is God meets the grace of the divine presence.